| SO long 2007 and this site.. Hello 2008 and a Brand new site http://www.xanga.com/Going_To_Be_Perfect_In_08 http://www.xanga.com/Going_To_Be_Perfect_In_08 http://www.xanga.com/Going_To_Be_Perfect_In_08 I will no longer be using my Barrelracindreams site... Check Out my new and imporved site 2008 is full of new beginnings, new goals, new life... I hope to see great feedback on my new site like I did this one. 2007 has been a hell of a year, but im ready to see what 2008 has in store for me I will hopefully talk to you girls lateer... On my new site XOXO |
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| Hey girls... So I am thinking about making a new site January 1. So I can start over fresh and really get on track. I was wondering what are some good layout sites for eating disorders? I want some that have the things on the side that you can put your goals and other things on it... UpDaTe............ Ok so I made a NEW SITE!!! http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Going_To_Be_Perfect_In_08 http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Going_To_Be_Perfect_In_08 http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Going_To_Be_Perfect_In_08 so I will be using it instead of this one in 2008. I need a change and I think it would be best for me to start fresh and to get on the right track and keep up with my life and eating. But here is some thinspo for you girls... Remember im still using this site til January so comment me and everythign on here... My new site will be ALOT better tho. Im going to keep it pretty organized. 
 
   
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|  Hey girls! Hmmm I have really got to update more and start commenting yall back, Dont I? LOlL.. Im sorry ive been slacking I promise I will get better. But anyways... i have not done great lately but i havent done horrible. But for me thats not good enough. I have gotta get myself under control. I just gotta give it my everything and thats it. Its that simple.. Im really stepping up after christmas. Im going to start running right after work. and then im getting a membership to an indoor arena so I will be riding my horses til late and then i gotta hang out with my boyfriend. So im going to be so busy food will never cross my mind. Im going to make some rules for myself and a good schedule and stick to it. Ill have to post it later. This week is going to be kinda a warm up week to see what i need to adjust and everything.. then by the time New years gets here I will be good to go! But enough of that Ill talk more bout it later Hmm as for other things in my life besides getting controlled by food... I dont know if I have a best friend anymore or not. I just dont think anybody likes me much anymore. Which sucks but I guess if they are happy then I am happy, afterall they are my friends... I just wish I could be close to them like i always have been. I kinda think that this eating disorder has taken a toll on my life. I seem to lose alot of friends cause of it. Cause they will want to go out or go clubbing and I will come up with something so i dont have to go just because I ate a piece of chocolate or a bite of food I didnt need. Does anyone else do this??? I absolutly love my friends, and thats why I keep this secret from them... I would never in a million years want to hurt anyone of them. And I just feel like i would be letting everyone down if they found out what i put myself through. and I dont want them to pick up the habits I have cause I wouldnt wish this on anyone. Maybe its just a faze and we will become close again, i really hope so cause thats why i feel really down I think.. Well that and my dad being really sick also. I dont want to get into my dad tho casue i will get upset. But I guess im through blabbing! I hope yall have a great holiday season!!! XOXO Stay Beautiful 
           
            
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| Hey girls... SRY Its been forever it seems since I updated. Life has me so busy. I go to work come home ride horses til like 7 and then I hang out with my boyfriend. I never get a break it seems. But anyways... Life for me has thrown curve ball right after curve ball. I dont know how to swing at some things it has thrown at me but maybe all the pieces will come to gether. But I think my best friend dont like me no more. I dont know why we never fight or anything. Its just she works at Hollister and there is this really nice girl who works there to and they have become best friends. Which is fine cause I want the best for my friends and they both have alot of fun. I guess I just feel left out and want to be apart of the little hollister crew, but im not good enough and too fat for that. They are both extremly pretty girls and I look like a freak compared to them. Oh well I guess I will just have to get over it. But I have a boyfriend now! I dont even know why he likes me cause he has dated gorgeous skinny girls. A homecoming queen and everything and then he starts dating me... Im like hmmm what the hell does he see in me. He has realized that im very insecure tho and asked me alot of questions... Gosh i hate lying to him, but if anyone ever found out about the real me I couldnt live with myself. Im so ashamed of my ways... On good terms he is starting to workout again starting monday( he has a really good body he just wants to work out more) so thats going to encourage me to hit the trail and run alot more. But I gotta go see my dad. He was put in the hopsital again last night, he had a stroke. So thats another thing i have to worry about. Stay Beautiful 
 
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|  Hey darlins! How are yall? Hmmm life of mine is ok. I guess it could be worse. But its definatly not a walk in the park. I Have a boyfriend now, but honestly i dont think things are going to work out cause he seems very controlling but we will see. My daddy is leaving pretty soon to go to Wyoming to work, so he will be gone for a year. When he leaves my life will for sure be a mess, my heart will be tore all to pieces, I will be crushed. I cant live with out my dad for a year. It will be the hardest thing. i guess I will worry bout that when it happens. But Anyways.... Eating wise is going ok. I slip up every now and then but not to bad... I just havent exercised which isnt good. Im a fat ass and need to go run. well im gonna go.. Toodles girlies Oh I meant to ask.... What do yall think of this for a tattoo idea on my wrist... Live. Laugh. Love. It just dawned on me that it would be perfect cause I have it like all over my room and I really live by it. I Would want black ink with Live outlined in Blue, Laugh outlined in Green, and Love outlined in pink. And I would have it in cursive i think. I really like it. What do you girls think? 
          
  
  
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